xo caitlin ox
Tuesday, July 29, 2003
  hey, its a new day but same old shit cuz i got in trouble again. it was lame. now i basically can't go and drive around, yet i can drive myself to work each day which is basically all i do. woop de do. it did piss me off this morning cuz i really wanted to see john and i had just woken up. i wasnted to see him so bad and i cryed on my wsay to work while driving cuz i thought i would never be able to drive and see him. i usually never cry, but he is always worth my tears. cvs called me today to set up an interveiw to work there. so now i get to juggle homework, two jobs, and try to manage a social life. i can probley do it. i am tryin not to eat so much now. im not playin hockey anymore and i don't exercise like i should. i think i look fat in my portrait. i am also tryin to go in my eyebrows, no more christina agulera eye brows for me. my eye brows are naturally thin. i should just leave them alone and let them be.  
Monday, July 28, 2003
  okay, im behind on my blogging, so here it goes.

friday- i went jet skiing with my dad. it was low tide so there wqas hardly any water. it was yucky walkin in the mudd, but in the end it was good cuz i found some beutiful seashells. it was my last day of dance. i miss dance. it was great exercise.

saturday- ahhh sleep. i went to uncle jim's house and burned mad cds. it was worth it cuz now i got good music in my car. i have one techno cd with these artists who are dutch, their music is bangin. afterwards as a family we went to eat at chilis.

sunday- i worked 11-4. boring. i felt tired and like shit. i finished reading my book for school the stranger. i now need to do the book work for it. fun fun fun.

monday- today. today i went to a.c. moore cuz they had a big sale on hello kitty stuff. the stuff was all sooo cute!! i spent a lot of money, lol. my sun roof on my car broke, so now its a manual roof. damnit. i need to wax my car tomarrow so i don't ruin the paint job. i am too lazy tho. hopefully i will. the entzmingers are still here. they went to the boardwalk when i went out. i was supposed to chill with kenney but i hate driving somewhere foreign with a lot of traffic by myself so i gave up and told him i wasn't goin to come. oh well. when i got home after all of this their was the neighbors cat dying next to our door. he hadn't had his medicine and flys were collecting near his ass. anywayz. i hope i can play scrabble or something later. im kinda bored, i do have to work on my web page tho. its cute!! 
Friday, July 25, 2003
 
lips



You Are a Like Lips!


You are a deep and sensual lover - who loves to spend hours making out.

A kiss is still the sexiest thing in the world to you.



And although you may not know it yet...

Your gentle untapped sexuality will be explosive once it's unleashed.

And if the tiger is out already ...then keep up the good work!



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Thursday, July 24, 2003
  i feel like putting up one of our fights. here it is::
(this was before he changed his screen name, and yes, he was as a sneaky as a snake. i would want a tatto of a snake but it would remind me of him too much. i even want a tattoo in arabic cuz that writting is so pretty, and i want it to be my name really small just above my butt. it would remind me of him even tho he said he spoke paki. by the way, im still chococai

Chococai: you act so shady.
RaTtLleSnAkE: hey
RaTtLleSnAkE: whats up
RaTtLleSnAkE: what you mean
Chococai: u do
Chococai: everyone thinks so
RaTtLleSnAkE: ??????
RaTtLleSnAkE: what u meaann
Chococai: do u kno what shady means?
Chococai: ???
RaTtLleSnAkE: i do
RaTtLleSnAkE: but i dont' think i do
Chococai: how do u not think you do?
Chococai: u don't even hug me when i visit u at work
RaTtLleSnAkE: sorry
RaTtLleSnAkE: i'm shy infrotn of other peopll
Chococai: me 2, but u don't even walk over and say hey when i was talkin to bill
Chococai: and nto even try to stay at the same pace as me when i walk
Chococai: i never thought that way until it was brought to my attention
RaTtLleSnAkE: ......
RaTtLleSnAkE: whats ur point
Chococai: and never once did u even consider visiting me at work
Chococai: did u?
Chococai: do i need a point?
RaTtLleSnAkE: u wanna break up right?
Chococai: lmao
Chococai: right.
RaTtLleSnAkE: for good?
Chococai: i liek u a lot aamir
Chococai: and i liek bein with u
Chococai: but for now, it isn't workin
RaTtLleSnAkE: right
Chococai: cuz i act more mature then u
RaTtLleSnAkE: try working 50 hours a week
Chococai: even tho u use the age difference
RaTtLleSnAkE: no
RaTtLleSnAkE: we're not breakin up
RaTtLleSnAkE: everything will be fine
RaTtLleSnAkE: Trust me
Chococai: when u work, u come home
RaTtLleSnAkE: u lost your virginity with me
Chococai: u can't take 2 minutes out of your life to say hi
RaTtLleSnAkE: remember that
Chococai: i don't care about virginity
RaTtLleSnAkE: ur special to me
Chococai: it makes me closer to my friends who aren't virgins
RaTtLleSnAkE: yeah
Chococai: ur special to me, but u don't act like i'm special
Chococai: u are all talk
RaTtLleSnAkE: when u turn 21
RaTtLleSnAkE: u'll realize how important virginity is
RaTtLleSnAkE: u'll be like, i wish i wouldn't have done it
RaTtLleSnAkE: i'm all talk?
RaTtLleSnAkE: damn
RaTtLleSnAkE: when i have time
Chococai: i kno it's important, but im young and wanna have fun
RaTtLleSnAkE: you can't even get the hell out of your house
Chococai: and i wanna feel as tho u care
Chococai: without u just sayin it
RaTtLleSnAkE: is that my fault or yours
RaTtLleSnAkE: how many times have i asked you if you want to come out
RaTtLleSnAkE: you say, ' ican't
RaTtLleSnAkE: how many times
RaTtLleSnAkE: tell em
RaTtLleSnAkE: and did i ever complain?
Chococai: how many times were u not allowed, a grown ass man
RaTtLleSnAkE: no i didnt becuase i can understand it
RaTtLleSnAkE: its not that i'm not allowed
RaTtLleSnAkE: I RESPECT MY PARENTS
RaTtLleSnAkE: and u won't understand that
Chococai: screw u
RaTtLleSnAkE: stop
RaTtLleSnAkE: fighting
RaTtLleSnAkE: i hate arguing
Chococai: whats the point of us.
RaTtLleSnAkE: shhhhhhhhhhh
RaTtLleSnAkE: stop
RaTtLleSnAkE: what are you doing saturday evening?
Chococai: how r u gonna shh me?
Chococai: i don't kno.
RaTtLleSnAkE: stop
Chococai: i don't work then anymore.
RaTtLleSnAkE: arguin
RaTtLleSnAkE: no point
RaTtLleSnAkE: gimme a kiss
Chococai: but u never kno my side??
Chococai: do u even kno where i work?
RaTtLleSnAkE: i understand u
Chococai: no u don't.
RaTtLleSnAkE: and i'm sorry
RaTtLleSnAkE: but i have a busy life
RaTtLleSnAkE: and i don't wana lose you over it cuz i really ilke u
RaTtLleSnAkE: n i wanna be with u
RaTtLleSnAkE: where?
Chococai: god dman.
RaTtLleSnAkE: u never told me
RaTtLleSnAkE: u told u worked at the pizza place
Chococai: everything i say to you just passes by
RaTtLleSnAkE: u said u were gonna quit
Chococai: primo pizzeria for almost a year now
Chococai: i don't want to quit.
RaTtLleSnAkE: i know u work there
Chococai: i have to get another job meaning 2
RaTtLleSnAkE: i thought u mean u got a new job
RaTtLleSnAkE: babe
Chococai: what.
RaTtLleSnAkE: i'll see if we can meet today
RaTtLleSnAkE: or tommorrow okay?
RaTtLleSnAkE: ok honey bun?
Chococai: tomarrow is a national holiday.
RaTtLleSnAkE: i'm off today, but i have to go to the dentist
Chococai: i will be spending it with my family
RaTtLleSnAkE: at 2:30
Chococai: fine.
RaTtLleSnAkE: i'll be at the dentist
Chococai: i like the dentist
RaTtLleSnAkE: he's gonna nail me witha novicane injection
RaTtLleSnAkE: 1 thing
RaTtLleSnAkE: i'm not being evil or mean
Chococai: what.
RaTtLleSnAkE: if you wanna break up, thats fine, go ahead
RaTtLleSnAkE: no offense, but i can get a girl whenever i want
RaTtLleSnAkE: but thats not my point
RaTtLleSnAkE: i actualy like you
RaTtLleSnAkE: and care about you
RaTtLleSnAkE: and don't want to lose you
RaTtLleSnAkE: you really mean a lot to me even though i don't show it
Chococai: when u don't show it it's hard to beleive it
Chococai: and i can get another guy if i want
RaTtLleSnAkE: ok
RaTtLleSnAkE: well thats my work place
RaTtLleSnAkE: ok wel
RaTtLleSnAkE: u can't get one like me
RaTtLleSnAkE: tust me on that one
RaTtLleSnAkE: my point is
RaTtLleSnAkE: I don't just work there like bill does
RaTtLleSnAkE: i'm a Senior there
Chococai: and what do u mean by that?
RaTtLleSnAkE: i have to be serious
Chococai: i just met bill
RaTtLleSnAkE: i can't hug, kiss, stuff like that at my work place
RaTtLleSnAkE: bill is just a part timer
Chococai: and tell me this, what do u plan to do with your life?
RaTtLleSnAkE: work ther
Chococai: why.
RaTtLleSnAkE: work for BB all my life
Chococai: why.
RaTtLleSnAkE: work in retail all myl ife
RaTtLleSnAkE: cuz thats what i live for
Chococai: and what if we continue...
Chococai: bein together
RaTtLleSnAkE: i wanna be a GM
RaTtLleSnAkE: in retail
Chococai: i would never be fully accepted by your family, and not even u
RaTtLleSnAkE: then we'll be together
RaTtLleSnAkE: maybe one day we'll have af amily
RaTtLleSnAkE: u never know
Chococai: i am the type to break molds
RaTtLleSnAkE: Bare with me. i have a hard life
Chococai: o kno that
RaTtLleSnAkE: if you bare with me, somethign will come out of it
Chococai: something did coem out of it
RaTtLleSnAkE: Sure you will
RaTtLleSnAkE: ...?
Chococai: memeries
Chococai: by the way
Chococai: if my virginity is so damn important
RaTtLleSnAkE: ur so sweet
Chococai: then why was your plans to lose it from the very start
RaTtLleSnAkE: beacuse i thought i'm special
RaTtLleSnAkE: but i guess i'm not
RaTtLleSnAkE: i won't be special to anyone
RaTtLleSnAkE: its cool
RaTtLleSnAkE: i'll leave ua lone
RaTtLleSnAkE: :'(
RaTtLleSnAkE: bye
RaTtLleSnAkE: happy
Chococai: wtf?
Chococai: what the fuck is that supposed to mean?
RaTtLleSnAkE: .......
Chococai: now u are gonan go off sayin u ain't special
RaTtLleSnAkE: whatever
Chococai: when your whole fmai just wants to see u happy and settled with a paki girl?
RaTtLleSnAkE: what ur mouth honey
Chococai: don't that make u special?
Chococai: even your sister doesn't think u will get married
RaTtLleSnAkE: cursing is not gonna make u special lol
RaTtLleSnAkE: hmmmmm
RaTtLleSnAkE: stop
RaTtLleSnAkE: thi whole paki thing
RaTtLleSnAkE: who the hel told u that
Chococai: and i kno that cuz im sneaky
Chococai: i curse cuz i was brought up hearin the fuckin words
RaTtLleSnAkE: STOPPPPPPPPPPp
Chococai: and told not to repeat them
RaTtLleSnAkE: u wanna be together?
Chococai: i don't kno what i want
Chococai: u make me so upset
Chococai: u tear me apart
Chococai: and i will alwyas have a link to you
Chococai: but u make me feel like im just worth a nightly sex
RaTtLleSnAkE: ur not
RaTtLleSnAkE: thats not true
RaTtLleSnAkE: ur too precious to be worth just that
Chococai: but i feel that way with u
Chococai: why do i?
RaTtLleSnAkE: u won't
RaTtLleSnAkE: everything will be fine
Chococai: how can u just say that without makin it come tru to life?
RaTtLleSnAkE: i will
Chococai: by the way, couldn't u even show affection when noone was around?
Chococai: or by the employees room
RaTtLleSnAkE: where?
Chococai: y are u with me?
Chococai: if u can have any girl u want?
Chococai: and why do u care?
Chococai: u say u do
Chococai: but u have no fuckin proof?
RaTtLleSnAkE: DONT' TALK TO ME LIKE THIS
RaTtLleSnAkE: DONT' CURSE AT ME
Chococai: how am i supposed to talk to you?
RaTtLleSnAkE: I'M NOT ASKING YOU. I'M TELLING YOU
Chococai: like everything is okay?
Chococai: cuz u scare me
RaTtLleSnAkE: THAT PISSES ME OFF
Chococai: and i will always feel like u try to be better then me cuz u are older
RaTtLleSnAkE: TALK TO ME HOWEVER, DONT' CURSE AT ME
RaTtLleSnAkE: UNLESS YOU WANNA DISRESPECT ME
Chococai: and i always feel lower next to u
RaTtLleSnAkE: IF YOU WANNA DISRESPECT ME, THEN CURSE AT ME
RaTtLleSnAkE: well dont'
RaTtLleSnAkE: don't
Chococai: i always do.
RaTtLleSnAkE: honey we need to get together
RaTtLleSnAkE: the bottom line is
RaTtLleSnAkE: we are not breaking up
RaTtLleSnAkE: okay?
Chococai: by the way, how can u tell me how to talk
Chococai: u ain't my dad
RaTtLleSnAkE: LOL
RaTtLleSnAkE: seeee
RaTtLleSnAkE: thats what makes us diffferetn
RaTtLleSnAkE: ur talkin back
RaTtLleSnAkE: i've learned always
RaTtLleSnAkE: respect others
RaTtLleSnAkE: rspect ur elders too
Chococai: i am always so uptight with u
RaTtLleSnAkE: u won't feel lowered if ya respected me
RaTtLleSnAkE: i ai'nt ur dad
Chococai: how are u goin to say i have no respect?
RaTtLleSnAkE: ur right
RaTtLleSnAkE: u do
RaTtLleSnAkE: but dont curse at me
Chococai: this is the first conversation we have had
Chococai: the only time u made me feel important was our first date
Chococai: and when u remeber my birthday
Chococai: those made me smile
Chococai: i am always so quiet and shy with u
Chococai: and i feel as tho me not talkin may be respectful, but we should be on the same level
Chococai: u shouldn't be above me
Chococai: we should be a "couple"
Chococai: not young child and elder
Chococai: everyone thinks imma be married a few times
Chococai: for thias
Chococai: cuz i NEVER SAY WHATS ONMY MIND
RaTtLleSnAkE: muuuuuah
Chococai: im always like "sure, okay, alright"
RaTtLleSnAkE: ur so sweet
Chococai: but its not like that
RaTtLleSnAkE: well
Chococai: u are gonan make me cures.....
RaTtLleSnAkE: u should
Chococai: but u don't let me!!!
RaTtLleSnAkE: u shoudl say whats on ur mind
Chococai: cuz then its ":disrespectin u"
Chococai: whats onmy mind is curse words
RaTtLleSnAkE: no
RaTtLleSnAkE: its not
RaTtLleSnAkE: say whatever is on ur mind
RaTtLleSnAkE: i wont get mad
RaTtLleSnAkE: ok
RaTtLleSnAkE: say them
RaTtLleSnAkE: go eahd
RaTtLleSnAkE: curse at me
Chococai: HOW CAN U FUCKIN RESPECT PEOPLE'S DESCISIONS WHEN THEY MAKE PEOPLE WHO ARE STRANGERS MARRY AND LEARN TO LOVE?"
RaTtLleSnAkE: honey i have to get ready
RaTtLleSnAkE: to go to the dentist
RaTtLleSnAkE: love relationshpis don't work
Chococai: that was low of me
Chococai: but it needs to be known
Chococai: they can work
RaTtLleSnAkE: only 2% of arranged marriages Break up
Chococai: is that why u think we would work?
Chococai: thats cuz they are fuckin scared not to
RaTtLleSnAkE: so they work
RaTtLleSnAkE: some love marriages do
Chococai: those women are scared and they do what their family wants
Chococai: not what they want
RaTtLleSnAkE: lollllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll
RaTtLleSnAkE: we might
RaTtLleSnAkE: honey don't teven talk about mrrage
RaTtLleSnAkE: cuz ud ont' know what ur talkin about
RaTtLleSnAkE: No they're not
RaTtLleSnAkE: thats what you hear
RaTtLleSnAkE: thats not what you know
Chococai: is that why u want us to always be together/>
RaTtLleSnAkE: my sister, u think she's scared of my family?
RaTtLleSnAkE: They asked her if she wants it
Chococai: cuz we don't love each other?
Chococai: and somehow that would work?
RaTtLleSnAkE: there no scared
RaTtLleSnAkE: because your parents can choose right for you
Chococai: your sister likes her boy
RaTtLleSnAkE: they know everything about you
RaTtLleSnAkE: they know whats good for you whenthey raise u
Chococai: she doesn't even kno i kno this stuff
RaTtLleSnAkE: NO
Chococai: but a lot don't listen
RaTtLleSnAkE: how do you know we don't love eachother
RaTtLleSnAkE: maybe we do love eacohter and we don't show it
RaTtLleSnAkE: honey
RaTtLleSnAkE: i have to get ready
RaTtLleSnAkE: ok?
RaTtLleSnAkE: i have an appointment in 40 min
RaTtLleSnAkE: i have to go
RaTtLleSnAkE: muah
RaTtLleSnAkE: i'll call u bye
Chococai: bbye
RaTtLleSnAkE: muuuuuuuah
RaTtLleSnAkE: gimme a kissq
Chococai: bye
Chococai: u never kiss me
RaTtLleSnAkE: no kiss?
Chococai: in real life
Chococai: no fake kiss form me
Chococai: it would be a lie
RaTtLleSnAkE: MUUUUUUUUUAH
RaTtLleSnAkE signed off at 1:56:27 PM.
 
  i feel like putting up one of our fights. here it is::
(this was before he changed his screen name, and yes, he was as a sneaky as a snake. i would want a tatto of a snake but it would remind me of him too much. i even want a tattoo in arabic cuz that writting is so pretty, and i want it to be my name really small just above my butt. it would remind me of him even tho he said he spoke paki.

Chococai: you act so shady.
RaTtLleSnAkE: hey
RaTtLleSnAkE: whats up
RaTtLleSnAkE: what you mean
Chococai: u do
Chococai: everyone thinks so
RaTtLleSnAkE: ??????
RaTtLleSnAkE: what u meaann
Chococai: do u kno what shady means?
Chococai: ???
RaTtLleSnAkE: i do
RaTtLleSnAkE: but i dont' think i do
Chococai: how do u not think you do?
Chococai: u don't even hug me when i visit u at work
RaTtLleSnAkE: sorry
RaTtLleSnAkE: i'm shy infrotn of other peopll
Chococai: me 2, but u don't even walk over and say hey when i was talkin to bill
Chococai: and nto even try to stay at the same pace as me when i walk
Chococai: i never thought that way until it was brought to my attention
RaTtLleSnAkE: ......
RaTtLleSnAkE: whats ur point
Chococai: and never once did u even consider visiting me at work
Chococai: did u?
Chococai: do i need a point?
RaTtLleSnAkE: u wanna break up right?
Chococai: lmao
Chococai: right.
RaTtLleSnAkE: for good?
Chococai: i liek u a lot aamir
Chococai: and i liek bein with u
Chococai: but for now, it isn't workin
RaTtLleSnAkE: right
Chococai: cuz i act more mature then u
RaTtLleSnAkE: try working 50 hours a week
Chococai: even tho u use the age difference
RaTtLleSnAkE: no
RaTtLleSnAkE: we're not breakin up
RaTtLleSnAkE: everything will be fine
RaTtLleSnAkE: Trust me
Chococai: when u work, u come home
RaTtLleSnAkE: u lost your virginity with me
Chococai: u can't take 2 minutes out of your life to say hi
RaTtLleSnAkE: remember that
Chococai: i don't care about virginity
RaTtLleSnAkE: ur special to me
Chococai: it makes me closer to my friends who aren't virgins
RaTtLleSnAkE: yeah
Chococai: ur special to me, but u don't act like i'm special
Chococai: u are all talk
RaTtLleSnAkE: when u turn 21
RaTtLleSnAkE: u'll realize how important virginity is
RaTtLleSnAkE: u'll be like, i wish i wouldn't have done it
RaTtLleSnAkE: i'm all talk?
RaTtLleSnAkE: damn
RaTtLleSnAkE: when i have time
Chococai: i kno it's important, but im young and wanna have fun
RaTtLleSnAkE: you can't even get the hell out of your house
Chococai: and i wanna feel as tho u care
Chococai: without u just sayin it
RaTtLleSnAkE: is that my fault or yours
RaTtLleSnAkE: how many times have i asked you if you want to come out
RaTtLleSnAkE: you say, ' ican't
RaTtLleSnAkE: how many times
RaTtLleSnAkE: tell em
RaTtLleSnAkE: and did i ever complain?
Chococai: how many times were u not allowed, a grown ass man
RaTtLleSnAkE: no i didnt becuase i can understand it
RaTtLleSnAkE: its not that i'm not allowed
RaTtLleSnAkE: I RESPECT MY PARENTS
RaTtLleSnAkE: and u won't understand that
Chococai: screw u
RaTtLleSnAkE: stop
RaTtLleSnAkE: fighting
RaTtLleSnAkE: i hate arguing
Chococai: whats the point of us.
RaTtLleSnAkE: shhhhhhhhhhh
RaTtLleSnAkE: stop
RaTtLleSnAkE: what are you doing saturday evening?
Chococai: how r u gonna shh me?
Chococai: i don't kno.
RaTtLleSnAkE: stop
Chococai: i don't work then anymore.
RaTtLleSnAkE: arguin
RaTtLleSnAkE: no point
RaTtLleSnAkE: gimme a kiss
Chococai: but u never kno my side??
Chococai: do u even kno where i work?
RaTtLleSnAkE: i understand u
Chococai: no u don't.
RaTtLleSnAkE: and i'm sorry
RaTtLleSnAkE: but i have a busy life
RaTtLleSnAkE: and i don't wana lose you over it cuz i really ilke u
RaTtLleSnAkE: n i wanna be with u
RaTtLleSnAkE: where?
Chococai: god dman.
RaTtLleSnAkE: u never told me
RaTtLleSnAkE: u told u worked at the pizza place
Chococai: everything i say to you just passes by
RaTtLleSnAkE: u said u were gonna quit
Chococai: primo pizzeria for almost a year now
Chococai: i don't want to quit.
RaTtLleSnAkE: i know u work there
Chococai: i have to get another job meaning 2
RaTtLleSnAkE: i thought u mean u got a new job
RaTtLleSnAkE: babe
Chococai: what.
RaTtLleSnAkE: i'll see if we can meet today
RaTtLleSnAkE: or tommorrow okay?
RaTtLleSnAkE: ok honey bun?
Chococai: tomarrow is a national holiday.
RaTtLleSnAkE: i'm off today, but i have to go to the dentist
Chococai: i will be spending it with my family
RaTtLleSnAkE: at 2:30
Chococai: fine.
RaTtLleSnAkE: i'll be at the dentist
Chococai: i like the dentist
RaTtLleSnAkE: he's gonna nail me witha novicane injection
RaTtLleSnAkE: 1 thing
RaTtLleSnAkE: i'm not being evil or mean
Chococai: what.
RaTtLleSnAkE: if you wanna break up, thats fine, go ahead
RaTtLleSnAkE: no offense, but i can get a girl whenever i want
RaTtLleSnAkE: but thats not my point
RaTtLleSnAkE: i actualy like you
RaTtLleSnAkE: and care about you
RaTtLleSnAkE: and don't want to lose you
RaTtLleSnAkE: you really mean a lot to me even though i don't show it
Chococai: when u don't show it it's hard to beleive it
Chococai: and i can get another guy if i want
RaTtLleSnAkE: ok
RaTtLleSnAkE: well thats my work place
RaTtLleSnAkE: ok wel
RaTtLleSnAkE: u can't get one like me
RaTtLleSnAkE: tust me on that one
RaTtLleSnAkE: my point is
RaTtLleSnAkE: I don't just work there like bill does
RaTtLleSnAkE: i'm a Senior there
Chococai: and what do u mean by that?
RaTtLleSnAkE: i have to be serious
Chococai: i just met bill
RaTtLleSnAkE: i can't hug, kiss, stuff like that at my work place
RaTtLleSnAkE: bill is just a part timer
Chococai: and tell me this, what do u plan to do with your life?
RaTtLleSnAkE: work ther
Chococai: why.
RaTtLleSnAkE: work for BB all my life
Chococai: why.
RaTtLleSnAkE: work in retail all myl ife
RaTtLleSnAkE: cuz thats what i live for
Chococai: and what if we continue...
Chococai: bein together
RaTtLleSnAkE: i wanna be a GM
RaTtLleSnAkE: in retail
Chococai: i would never be fully accepted by your family, and not even u
RaTtLleSnAkE: then we'll be together
RaTtLleSnAkE: maybe one day we'll have af amily
RaTtLleSnAkE: u never know
Chococai: i am the type to break molds
RaTtLleSnAkE: Bare with me. i have a hard life
Chococai: o kno that
RaTtLleSnAkE: if you bare with me, somethign will come out of it
Chococai: something did coem out of it
RaTtLleSnAkE: Sure you will
RaTtLleSnAkE: ...?
Chococai: memeries
Chococai: by the way
Chococai: if my virginity is so damn important
RaTtLleSnAkE: ur so sweet
Chococai: then why was your plans to lose it from the very start
RaTtLleSnAkE: beacuse i thought i'm special
RaTtLleSnAkE: but i guess i'm not
RaTtLleSnAkE: i won't be special to anyone
RaTtLleSnAkE: its cool
RaTtLleSnAkE: i'll leave ua lone
RaTtLleSnAkE: :'(
RaTtLleSnAkE: bye
RaTtLleSnAkE: happy
Chococai: wtf?
Chococai: what the fuck is that supposed to mean?
RaTtLleSnAkE: .......
Chococai: now u are gonan go off sayin u ain't special
RaTtLleSnAkE: whatever
Chococai: when your whole fmai just wants to see u happy and settled with a paki girl?
RaTtLleSnAkE: what ur mouth honey
Chococai: don't that make u special?
Chococai: even your sister doesn't think u will get married
RaTtLleSnAkE: cursing is not gonna make u special lol
RaTtLleSnAkE: hmmmmm
RaTtLleSnAkE: stop
RaTtLleSnAkE: thi whole paki thing
RaTtLleSnAkE: who the hel told u that
Chococai: and i kno that cuz im sneaky
Chococai: i curse cuz i was brought up hearin the fuckin words
RaTtLleSnAkE: STOPPPPPPPPPPp
Chococai: and told not to repeat them
RaTtLleSnAkE: u wanna be together?
Chococai: i don't kno what i want
Chococai: u make me so upset
Chococai: u tear me apart
Chococai: and i will alwyas have a link to you
Chococai: but u make me feel like im just worth a nightly sex
RaTtLleSnAkE: ur not
RaTtLleSnAkE: thats not true
RaTtLleSnAkE: ur too precious to be worth just that
Chococai: but i feel that way with u
Chococai: why do i?
RaTtLleSnAkE: u won't
RaTtLleSnAkE: everything will be fine
Chococai: how can u just say that without makin it come tru to life?
RaTtLleSnAkE: i will
Chococai: by the way, couldn't u even show affection when noone was around?
Chococai: or by the employees room
RaTtLleSnAkE: where?
Chococai: y are u with me?
Chococai: if u can have any girl u want?
Chococai: and why do u care?
Chococai: u say u do
Chococai: but u have no fuckin proof?
RaTtLleSnAkE: DONT' TALK TO ME LIKE THIS
RaTtLleSnAkE: DONT' CURSE AT ME
Chococai: how am i supposed to talk to you?
RaTtLleSnAkE: I'M NOT ASKING YOU. I'M TELLING YOU
Chococai: like everything is okay?
Chococai: cuz u scare me
RaTtLleSnAkE: THAT PISSES ME OFF
Chococai: and i will always feel like u try to be better then me cuz u are older
RaTtLleSnAkE: TALK TO ME HOWEVER, DONT' CURSE AT ME
RaTtLleSnAkE: UNLESS YOU WANNA DISRESPECT ME
Chococai: and i always feel lower next to u
RaTtLleSnAkE: IF YOU WANNA DISRESPECT ME, THEN CURSE AT ME
RaTtLleSnAkE: well dont'
RaTtLleSnAkE: don't
Chococai: i always do.
RaTtLleSnAkE: honey we need to get together
RaTtLleSnAkE: the bottom line is
RaTtLleSnAkE: we are not breaking up
RaTtLleSnAkE: okay?
Chococai: by the way, how can u tell me how to talk
Chococai: u ain't my dad
RaTtLleSnAkE: LOL
RaTtLleSnAkE: seeee
RaTtLleSnAkE: thats what makes us diffferetn
RaTtLleSnAkE: ur talkin back
RaTtLleSnAkE: i've learned always
RaTtLleSnAkE: respect others
RaTtLleSnAkE: rspect ur elders too
Chococai: i am always so uptight with u
RaTtLleSnAkE: u won't feel lowered if ya respected me
RaTtLleSnAkE: i ai'nt ur dad
Chococai: how are u goin to say i have no respect?
RaTtLleSnAkE: ur right
RaTtLleSnAkE: u do
RaTtLleSnAkE: but dont curse at me
Chococai: this is the first conversation we have had
Chococai: the only time u made me feel important was our first date
Chococai: and when u remeber my birthday
Chococai: those made me smile
Chococai: i am always so quiet and shy with u
Chococai: and i feel as tho me not talkin may be respectful, but we should be on the same level
Chococai: u shouldn't be above me
Chococai: we should be a "couple"
Chococai: not young child and elder
Chococai: everyone thinks imma be married a few times
Chococai: for thias
Chococai: cuz i NEVER SAY WHATS ONMY MIND
RaTtLleSnAkE: muuuuuah
Chococai: im always like "sure, okay, alright"
RaTtLleSnAkE: ur so sweet
Chococai: but its not like that
RaTtLleSnAkE: well
Chococai: u are gonan make me cures.....
RaTtLleSnAkE: u should
Chococai: but u don't let me!!!
RaTtLleSnAkE: u shoudl say whats on ur mind
Chococai: cuz then its ":disrespectin u"
Chococai: whats onmy mind is curse words
RaTtLleSnAkE: no
RaTtLleSnAkE: its not
RaTtLleSnAkE: say whatever is on ur mind
RaTtLleSnAkE: i wont get mad
RaTtLleSnAkE: ok
RaTtLleSnAkE: say them
RaTtLleSnAkE: go eahd
RaTtLleSnAkE: curse at me
Chococai: HOW CAN U FUCKIN RESPECT PEOPLE'S DESCISIONS WHEN THEY MAKE PEOPLE WHO ARE STRANGERS MARRY AND LEARN TO LOVE?"
RaTtLleSnAkE: honey i have to get ready
RaTtLleSnAkE: to go to the dentist
RaTtLleSnAkE: love relationshpis don't work
Chococai: that was low of me
Chococai: but it needs to be known
Chococai: they can work
RaTtLleSnAkE: only 2% of arranged marriages Break up
Chococai: is that why u think we would work?
Chococai: thats cuz they are fuckin scared not to
RaTtLleSnAkE: so they work
RaTtLleSnAkE: some love marriages do
Chococai: those women are scared and they do what their family wants
Chococai: not what they want
RaTtLleSnAkE: lollllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll
RaTtLleSnAkE: we might
RaTtLleSnAkE: honey don't teven talk about mrrage
RaTtLleSnAkE: cuz ud ont' know what ur talkin about
RaTtLleSnAkE: No they're not
RaTtLleSnAkE: thats what you hear
RaTtLleSnAkE: thats not what you know
Chococai: is that why u want us to always be together/>
RaTtLleSnAkE: my sister, u think she's scared of my family?
RaTtLleSnAkE: They asked her if she wants it
Chococai: cuz we don't love each other?
Chococai: and somehow that would work?
RaTtLleSnAkE: there no scared
RaTtLleSnAkE: because your parents can choose right for you
Chococai: your sister likes her boy
RaTtLleSnAkE: they k 
  damn. i remeber when i was goin out with aamir and everything was jump when he said jump, or drop everyhting to go see him. i skipped school to be with him. i lost my virginity with him. even when we are broken up this is what he says::
(i'm chococai)
PaThAnNuMbErOnE: whats up
Chococai: nuthin
PaThAnNuMbErOnE: wanna go out to the movies with me
Chococai: i have a ton of work to do
Chococai: when do u want to do that?
PaThAnNuMbErOnE: right now
Chococai: no
PaThAnNuMbErOnE: ok
Chococai: i just came home from dance
PaThAnNuMbErOnE: o ok
PaThAnNuMbErOnE: so just take a shower and meet me up there
Chococai: no, lol
PaThAnNuMbErOnE: ok
Chococai: i am not allowed to go out
Chococai: i got in trouble
Chococai: lol
Chococai: i have a lot goin on in my life right now
PaThAnNuMbErOnE: ok
Chococai: i ahve to read 3 books and do homework by september
Chococai: so i can be in honors english
PaThAnNuMbErOnE: o ok
Chococai: cuz i slacked too much my junior year
Chococai: i have my last day of dance tomarrow morning
PaThAnNuMbErOnE: o ok
Chococai: i have to continue work , which i just have 3 days a week, and thats all good for me
Chococai: so sorry
Chococai: just like you
Chococai: i don't drop everything i do to go out to the movies with you
PaThAnNuMbErOnE: its ok
Chococai: maybe im too busy for you now
PaThAnNuMbErOnE: ok
 
  redid my MiGente page. it was too plain. i am supposed to have compnay today. this girl sarah was cool with my sister jillian before she moved to nebraska. our mom's are cool too and i used to babysit sarah and her little brother cameron. they came up today via air plane and are stayin with us for vacation. my mom and sister left this morning to pick them up, but they havn't came home and i'm bored.
this morning my mom went to my school to pick up my summer packet so i can be in honors english next year. it probley won't matter cuz im so dumb colleges probley won't want me anywayz.
 
Wednesday, July 23, 2003
  you always want what you can't have.
i want john.
will he allow me to have him? 
  i just compared my portrait to my cousin emily who is actually like, my second or third cousin cuz her mom is my dad's cousin. so anywayz i look more like her then my first cousins. we have the same nose and lips. so weird.  
  lets recap about lats night. i am soooooooo tired. i did ballet from 5:30-7:30 and it wasn't easy. we were jumping and hoping and basically doin stuff i have never done before. it was so hard. i tried my best to keep up with everyone though, even though counting me only four girls were there. that made it harder tho. then last night i wanted john sooooooooo bad. i must have been horny cuz of my period and hormones or sumthing. but i just wanted to hear his voice and kiss him. hug him, freak him. i just wanted to be in the same room as him and be able to look at him. talk to him. i miss him soooo much. he has no idea how much. my eyes get blurry thinking about it, haha.

i just got home from work. i smell like pizza. two old ladies gave me a hard time and dissed irish people to me not knowing it was a diss, ya kno? cuz old people are like that. i wonder if theyt knew i was iorish. they should considering i have freckles. wow. one dollar tip. at leats it was better then nothing. but then again i split all my tips with the other girl i work with, so 50 cents. wow. i got in trouble this morning. my body is so achy and tired. dancing, work, and my period doesn't help. usually i don't care about my period but for some reason its hitting me. i think cuz im gettin older an shit. anywayz i slept in and got to work an hour and a half late. my mom got pissed even tho my boss didn't seem like he was pissed. probley annoyed. this si the second time this happened so according to my mom i can't drive for two days. but i could drive myself to work today. woopee. i need to go to a chiropracter. im mad sore. my mom went to my grandma's house. imma wait for her to get home to give me a check to go. if i can't go today imma try to go tomarrow. i have nothing to do tomarrow so i want to sleep in late. i havn't done that in a while. i need it bad. but i dunno how late i will be sleeping in cuz sarah, cameron, and their mom roseann are coming in from nebraska. so now i got two 12 year olds sleeping under me for a bit. tomarrow night i have dance, i forgot about that for a sec. it's from 5:30-7:30 again. she made the times less cuz of less people attending.
i was supposed to go to the movies today with brandi, but now i gotta call her and tell her i can't go out now cuz i got in trouble. the next time we can chill will be monday. that sucks. i gotta go call her.
i almost forgot i gotta dye my hair today. its too dark. im too pale. im too tired. 
Tuesday, July 22, 2003
  i had ballet from 5:30 to 7:30. i'm tired. we were doin mad hard stuff, jumping and hopping all around the room. not easy shit. i miss talkin to john sooooooooooo bad. omg i misss him sooooooooo bad. i wanna just kiss him all over and hug him and he would be happy tokno i wanna freak him soooooooooooooooooo bad. maybe cuz im all emotional cu zi have my period or my hormones are up or sumthin. but all i kno is i wanna kiss him and fuck him and hear his voice!!! i wanna feel his full soft lips pressed upon mines... 
 
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  AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH whoa. caps. but well needed. i got my senior portraits back, they are a hot mess!!! wow they are bad, it doesn't even look like me. anywayz, i just got home from work.. but let's rewind to yesturday...
ahhh woke up at a fresh 8:30 and layed in bed so i was late for dance which was at 9. it lasted to 12, so 2 hours of dancing. i havn't had physical exercise (unless sex counts, but i make him do the work, haha) since like 2 months ago. afterwards i got dressed and took a shower and stopped by at the mall. bought a pair of pants and a purse at ny and co with my giftcard and coupon so it was free and stopped by target to buy some stuff for my car. i was supposed to go to kenney's house and he was goin to make me a cd, but imma go to my uncle's house saturday and then it will be free. i have mad songs in mind. lol.
back to today. i got my period. im tired from yesturday, and i didn't get enough sleep. i'm not in a bad mood cuz of it or bitching at anyone, but i just feel worn down. i feel sleepy and achy. i have dance again at 5:30. i think imma take a tylonal and rest til then. 
Sunday, July 20, 2003
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  yesturday was an alright day overall. i got a pedicure with my mom which was well needed cuz my toes weren't lookin so good. brittany called me wanting me to work for her at primo. i worked 5-10:30 cuz i got jose to let me out early. otherwise i would be there till 12. bluh. when i was driving to work i saw my gas on empty and i called my mom to tell her cuz im paranoid about those things. she brought me my cell phone just in case and while i was working my dad came and took my car and got gas in it. i appreciated it a lot. but right now i am doin some chores for it, lol. anywayz being at a lil pizza shop being like the only girl amoung six men isn't always that great. before he left, one of the mexican pizza makers who i can hardly understand was asked what he wanted. i heard him say "this is what i want" and a hand on my shoulder. grossss he's like 35. and this boy who used to be a driver there thats really cute dropped by with a driver that works here now all bored and shit. this man came in to order a pizza to feed his two kids at like 9:30 and came back to say he had no money. i wish we could have givin him the pizza anywayz but he left before my manager jose could say sumthing. so the two (old n new) driver people took the pizza along with stealing two ice creams. lol. then one of them, the old driver endicott dude was all fixing my necklace and asking if i wanted to go swimming after work "no clothes needed." wow. he's all cute askin lil ole me that shit. weird. anywayz. it's sunday and i got out of church. everyone is at the beach. i don't feel like another brigentine drama, plus my ma said she had to park 3 blocks away from the beach this morning, what tells her that i will find a spot now? weirdo. anywayz, i gotta get back to work... but before i do imma do a quiz. 
Friday, July 18, 2003
  hey!! i was mad tired today, i slept till 2, but i got to the mall to see john vu at 3. he is so sweet, he got me a birthday gift from june!! it was a pooh bear from the disney store. that shit was 42 dollars, daaamn. he makes me feel all special!! haha. anywayz, we went to go see bad boys 2, it was funny and had good special effects. i got in trouble for goin to the movies and not telling my mom that i left the mall so i'm not allowed to drive anywhere tomarrow. hopefully my dad will put in a cd player into my car that he has had sitting in his garage for mad long, i really want it. plus it would be perfect cuz it ain't like i can take the car, so it will be sitting in my driveway and he's off! if im goin to keep my car handicapped i might as well make it worth it. ps, i hate math!!

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Thursday, July 17, 2003
  went to vineland. i'm afraid of john's mommy. john got in trouble and couldn't see me. :-( only one thing sums this up...
 
Wednesday, July 16, 2003
  i just designed this blog. it took me forever cuz blogger signed me out before i could save it, then my computer frozeand i hadda do it over, but now it's done and i'm happy :D 
  tomarrow i'm supposed to be going to "crimeland" but i need to talk to john, why won't he pick up his phone?? i went with kajal to a.c. and she cursed out this boy she was talkin to. i got to see john vu, he's such a sweetheart!! 
Saturday, July 12, 2003
  i've been a bad girl... almost had sex BUT DIDN'T with two differnt guys in the past two days... both didn't wanna use a condom... and if i was to get pregant... i wouldn't kno if my baby was half mexican or rican! haha 
Friday, July 11, 2003
  wow! yesturday was so fun... and tiring. i made it to vineland okay, we didn't get lost. i like that guy a lot, the one that let me cut him off 2 times for bein in the wrong lane... haha. when we go there noone was pickin up john's phone, it sucked. we went top the mall to look for him and couldn't find him cuz stupid me thought he might be there even tho he still has to hand in his working papers for the job. anywayz, he was asleep the whole time even tho when we went to his house his lil cousins just stared at the door instead of opening it for weyldon. we went back to w's house and chilled there. i got to spend like 1 1/2 hours with him... we were all alone in a reverends home office, lmao. no sex tho... no condom=no sex. but anywayz, his lil brother walked in on us and my girl and w too, haha, he was all shocked. it was worth it. we were never caught too and we didn't get lost!! ahhhhhh, sooooooo gooooooood 
Tuesday, July 08, 2003
  zzz, i'm tired. i am suppost to be driving to vineland thursday, i hope i don't die, cuz basically i kno iwill get lost, lol.i took my senior portraits today, i bet i looked a hot mess cuz my ac doesn't work in my saab. damn, those boys must mean a lot to use if we are willing to drive an hour in the middle of jersey not knowing where we are touring a different county. then again, they came here to see us so they must feel for us 2... 
Sunday, July 06, 2003
  boring day. i worked today, lol. i miss john. john vu, you are a cool viet boy, lol. 
Saturday, July 05, 2003
  hmmm, new da old shit. i tried goin to brigintine beach cuz ma was there with isabelle and jil. i couldn't find a parkin spot and i cut off a fire truck storming out of the firehouse, imma ass, lol. then acted like a retarted shooby in frount of a cop behind me. oh wellz... i was too impatient to met my ma at the dairy queen and sit in the blazin heat for 15 minutes so i bounced. i wish i could have made it to the beach tho. now im home. at least i didn't drive down any one-way streets backward this time... 
this is about the boing day to day thoughts of caitlin... a girl in a boring suberban area of atlantic city, new jersey, who never uses caps when she types.

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